(. . .get over it ha ha)
Nick bought Whoppers-The original Malted Milk Balls :). . .
(. . . Thank God. . . cause I really need a good dose of chocolate.)
Point is, I forgot how delicious they are. It gave me one of those nostalgic "When I was Kid" moments. My Mom used to buy Whoppers, and Taco Bell, and Grapefruit DietRite soda. . .and my life was tough, but I was so HAPPY. Not all the time, but in general. So, if a kid who had a tough life could be so happy. . .even with all the things that were out of her control. . . why can't the adult?
And I answered my own question. Very shortly after asking it as a matter of fact. Because. . .I choose not to.
. . .So I choose to. I am happy. I will be happy. Cause I really am so lucky to have what I have and to have survived in one piece what I have survived in one piece. And to have Whoppers, and an AMAZING, Beautiful, Funny, Strong, Crazy, Pain in the Ass Mother. . .who I am so much like. . . who bought them when I was a kid so I could remember those moments now while eating them.
I am chasing life so much. . . running after it. . . trying to get and do things. . .and I am missing the scenery. I have a business right now that can support the people involved with a few customers a month. I am going to stop chasing my tail and do things that make me happy. . . or rather. . .lend to my happiness. I will not be angry. I will not get upset about stupid little things. I will clean up my house each day because I am so lucky to have one. . .and no matter how much of a rush you are in. . .I will do what I can for you after I have done what I can for ME.
Understand that ME includes my children. I put them first because they are a part of me and who I am. But as I have said before, I must secure my oxygen mask first so that I am alive to help them. So. . .here goes. . .again I am sure. . . but still. I will keep doing it till I get it right. . . cause I will. I really am that smart. . .and amazing.
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